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Kitti, the Unstoppable Hex Machine

...and a rock feels no pain, and an island never cries...

Today, I was late for work because the snooze on my alarm decided not to work, and the bus I took decided to stay at each stop for about 5 minutes with the doors open (which also made it incredibly crowded and more people turned up as the bus was waiting there). Also, as I was crossing the road, some imbacile in the layby decided to reverse without looking behind and almost ran me over.

I have an ulcer on the roof of my mouth so all food and drink hurts rather a lot. Because of this, I'm getting hypoglycemic AND I feel sick...

Plus, the snow has totally ruined what was going to be a date with a rather good looking and intelligent man, and I can't even go to the pub because a person I really loathe is having a birthday party there.

I've had enough now.
I just want to go to sleep and never wake up... Which would be a good plan if I could even *get* to sleep at the moment... I can't seem to until about 4am and then have to wake up at 8 which I never manage, and always have to rush in the mornings which means I almost never eat before work and get MORE hypoglycemic.

I haven't spoken to Matt since New Years eve and the one text I got from him was amazingly dismissive, and he's not replied to any of my texts since. Have I lost my friend again? I only just got him back. Maybe I said something or someone's told him something... fuck, I hate people!

I wish I could just be with someone tonight... I just feel totally sad and lonely, and I miss my Matt. For about 4 days, I got to remember what love feels like. Now he's ignoring me again. Maybe that psycho bitch girlfriend who hates me came back. I really hope not, she was so horrible to him. I'd like to think he's not that weak that he would just jump on her again if she asked him to.

Miaow.. :( Stuff sucks.